"Lonely .... I am so lonely .... I have nobody .... Im on my own"

I just want to curl up in a ball and stay like that for a week.

I am feeling like my friends are leaving me. For real. Two of my best friends partied with other 3 girls last night and the last best friend hanged out with three other girls in town or somewhere. I am the only one who didn´t go outside somewhere with somebody.

Am I different? Is it because I am politer and don´t go so wild so easlily? Is it because I am raised differently? Why are they slowly trying to get away from me? Why me? Gahh FUCK LIFE! SERIOUSLY! I am pissed off!