Little Things

yay Little Things came out =D
 One Direction - Little Things
just love love it =)

Harry´s solo was stuck in my mind all day haha.

But not only that the song is by 1D makes it special. The point is what matters the most.

Those little things that are special about us makes us more and more perfect for another person.

Maybe the way you smile, your dimples on your cheek, how your eyes go when you smile. The way they do something.

"The way you flip your hair gets me overhelmed" hahaha see what I did there?

But maybe the way you say "hey" or just flash a little smile at me gets me blushing or gets me overhelmed.

Remember that you are what I call perfection.

Hahaha just random gifs =)

Niall photobombing :D

O_O

genius :D

Oh yeah, sorry for not posting so often anymore. My schooldays are longer than ever.

Ooh and another horrible thing, we might get uniforms :O NOOOOO

No, just, no

I had a crush in the ending of last year and beginning of this year. I though I got over him. But am I really? The way he laughed. Seriously, he laughed like Liam. He had the Liam-laughing-face when we laughed yesterday.  But he laughs with his mouth closed.
I know that I dont have a chance with him. Im short with fat legs, and my skin is H-O-R-R-I-B-L-E!!!

Do you have that friend who you have been friends for so long and you now belive she or he has changed? Like for the worst? Maybe that person has become more full of themselves, self-centered, arrogant, unfriendly? Well I am afraid that my one friend has becom more spoiled and she is more greedy or something like mean? No she is not compleatly that! No! But she wants more free from us but doesnt give that much back. I share my frink with her every day we get together (I always carry a bottle full of something to drink cuz I used to faint often when I was younger and I dont like the feeling of thirst of course =) ) and the most generous thing she has done is giving away some papers from magazines of the boys, NO not posters but interviews or so. And then she gives away freely everyone else but One Direction (okay maybe Rita Ora, Ariana or Jack Sparrow too).
She says how hard it is to give away stuff. Well how about I dont share my frink with you anymore cuz giving away stuff is hard for me too?
Her father works so well that her mother hasnt worked for YEARS many years (like almost 15). My father lost his job and now he must find a new one cuz we cant live just from my mother´s money.
Her parents buy and order her (and for her brother and sister) stuff from england and other countryes. She has so many stuff but still wants more. She says "I command her to buy me that." While I say "I beg my mom if I could have that." You see the difference?
She only wants more and more and more and she will not be happy. PS she hates her mom, but I dont judge her that much of that cuz she says her mother is witing for her to move out when she turnes 18 and says that she is fat. But her mother still buys her sweets and chocolate.
She is like "Im crying Im gonna stop it now, I give up!" every time a celeb. doesnt follow her. and then when another comes on she starts again spamming that person. Gahh it gets on my nerves sometimes.

But who sayd life is fair?

Sorry

I am not gonna upload every day anymore. Just school and hobbies and friends have to be on a higher place than this. Sorry but it is true.

and sorry that every gif doesnt move :/ they were good though.

One song

Do you have that one song from your childhood you remember dancing to?
That one song you and your friends remember?
That one song - when it comes from the radio or you find it on your phone you stop everything and start dancing and sing a long (at least a little).

I enjoy singing ... on my own ... alone in my room ... when nobody is listening =)
I sing on my own. I dont belive I could become a great singer one day. I will not ever be.
I just hope I can become really good at dancing.

But singing and dancing voth need music, a song.

Music is a big part of many teenagers and young adaults life.

19

One day I had 19 pageviews wow... Um ... thank you all who read my bullshit.

Today was guite boring. Went to one training, was normal, tomorrow again.
One of my friends (lets call her Janelle- she is the one who I speak about the most) is going away for some days. I am going to miss her, belive it or not.

Listening to covers of One Direction songs and A Team by Ed Sheeran. Some people on youtube are talented like CIMORELLI´s, someone named karoo05 and Megan Nicole. My frends want to try and sing and put it on youtube. I don´t know if they are talented but they are better than me =). I would rather be famous for dancing or at least be good at it than singing. I can´t imagine myself performing by singing to thousands of people ... It is a little scarying. Thats why I want to be a dancer. They are more in the backround =).

Who wants to be a dancer like Danielle someday?

You can´t handle our swag.

Hurray!

Yesterday got along with my friends super good. Had a super great laugh. Stalked a boy haha.

Watching the X Factor now. I hope District3, MK1, Ella, Lucy or James don´t leave. Sorry not sorry for Union J George is the little "Cutey" of the band but his name doesnt include even a single "j".

AAND UnionJ got through... YAY Ella got through! ... YAY for James! ... Haha Rylan! ... Cristopher ... And that guy ... YAY District3!!! ... OMG YES Lucy! ... COME ON SAY MK1! ... Okay Jade ... AHH!

Dont you just hate show breaks?

 NO MK1 was sent home! Why?! Gahh -_-

Yes, I love my mom...

So today my two best friends skipped school cuz its the last day before autumn break. I was quite lonely today. After I came home went to grandma´s place. Came back an hour ago. Half an hour ago my friend called me to come out. I asked my mom for premission if I can go she sayd no. So I didn´t go that girl who I have talked about the most called me back and sayd that the other who skipped asked her to make me so mad that I would come out. They started to complain about me. What did I feel? I am actually glad that my mom didn´t allow me to go out. Cuz friends don´t do things like that.

Just cryed in my room. Tweeted about hw they can´t understand me and then ... about selfharming. I am still thinking about it. Would it make the pain go away they did in my heart/chest?

I know my mom will always be on my side. Not like some other people. How could I even had a little nice daydream about them and I and some other people on my way home? Why are they so changed?

Better days

Today the grades were out. I am going to have some A´s too. yay.

My friends were in a happy mood after our language class. but before that ... they were kinda bitchy ... sorry for using bad words but who commands food and drink from her best friend?
Later had a great laugh.

Right now in a feeling of cute cats haha.

1. confused cat: "What the fug?"

    
Just cute :3 the one in the back: "Yea, fetus kittens are so dumb.... peasants"

     just look how cute this is. awwh

GIve me a break

I am just so tired. I get home so late. Even though it is the last school week they still do tests. I have two tests tomorrow and I think the best I can do is a B. I can´t wait for Friday!

My life was really boring today. Just a normal student´s Monday.


When somebody you don´t like gets a hit or hurts him-/herself.

  Justice!      

"Lonely .... I am so lonely .... I have nobody .... Im on my own"

I just want to curl up in a ball and stay like that for a week.

I am feeling like my friends are leaving me. For real. Two of my best friends partied with other 3 girls last night and the last best friend hanged out with three other girls in town or somewhere. I am the only one who didn´t go outside somewhere with somebody.

Am I different? Is it because I am politer and don´t go so wild so easlily? Is it because I am raised differently? Why are they slowly trying to get away from me? Why me? Gahh FUCK LIFE! SERIOUSLY! I am pissed off!

Boring

Today was quite boring, just went to grandma and grandpa´s place and took a bath. Right now watching X Factor. Go Spraggan! MK1! Distric3! James! and some others.
I don´t really get why some girls turned from directioners to janoskinators (did I write that right?) and now they are fans of UnionJ. I just don´t get it. You like only the new boybands? That means you are not true, well thats what I think.

I think that Little Mix is the girl version of One Direction =) thay are a lot a-like.

Imagine:You are Harry´s crush and then one day when Larry is on Hazza´s twitter together Louis tweets you "Hey Y/N! I have a HUUGE crush on you ;)" Harry: "Why did you do that for?!" Louis: "Cuz it is weird to look how you both fangirl over eachother, can´t you guys just get together already?"

look how cute and shy he looks!

Friday

Sorry for not posting lately. Thursday was REALLY busy and just couldn´t find time sooner today. Watching the X Factor on youtube right now. I got B+ in Chemistry yay victory!

So one of my firends really likes this one guy and has talked to him through the internet two times. But thats all. hah

Some people are going to party tomorrow evening and at night... I can go but ... Im not as a party animal as they are and I think they would not like me there not doing all the things they will do...
Im going there next morning so we can take the photos for school and then come back I think. Cuz yeah ... it would be awkward if they don´t want me and I would be there.

Everytime I see this one girl cut wounds I just freeze. I can´t even think anything. Why would anyone cut herself? Life ain´t that bad. I know there are dark times but still, the coulds will disappear soon. Just be strong.
You think that "Yeah easy for you to say, I can be sure you have never had dark times." Everyone has theyr dark times. Different dark times... If you don´t know my lifestory, don´t judge me. Not my mother or that friend who is the closest to me would never fully understand me.

So this is what I just saw:
There comes a duo (a woman and a man who are friends) the guy cant sing and the judges ask her to sing solo. She does and the guy doesn´t go off stage, he stays and tries to make the crowd scream. She got a yes, yes (he screams YESSS into the microphone every time) and then a no. The guy pleads the last judge to say yes and when the judge does he is SUPER happy for her.
Now that´s a real friend everyone should have. Always by your side when you need him/her.
Really touching that was.

So more a little about my life...
Almost everyday on schoolday my days are really long, the shortest is till 3 pm and the longest like till 6 pm. I am not used to so long days and am really tired at the end of the day. My brother talked to my mother and found out that. He came to me and sayd that I should leave one of the classes.
But ... I can´t! I left the choir (last year) and then soon found this one training that I have 3 times in a week for almost 2 hours what was a big change to one class in one week (it lasted 1 hour). But I really didn´t like to sing there anymore, the teacher was really ... Gahh.
So I go to two classes now and the other one is 2 times a week and every class in for 1 hour or 5-10 minutes shorter.
It would be weird to leave the longer lasting training cuz I am good at it and its only the second year. Even though it needs a LOT of time.
But I can´t imagine my life without the other class. Dancing is the thing I need in my life. And we travel in every two years to some other country and I like performing with my croup gals to people. (Well not when Im in a bad mood or I mess up really badly :P)

So yeah ... its a dilemma.

Long days

Had a really long day today. Im really tired. Just finished homework ... well most of it.
Tomorrow going to one class at 4 or 5 pm so will be back when it is getting really dark :/ I am not scared of the dark but I don´t like walking on streets alone in cold when it is getting dark.

some crush subject pics:

Maybe...

Maybe Im not that popular girl who hangs more out with boys, talks to alot of people and has over 200 friends on facebook or over 150 followers on twitter who I all know. Maybe I don´t wear the most fashionable clothes. Maybe I don´t have an I Phone or a I Pad or something like that. Maybe I don´t take random cute pics all the time, everywhere. Maybe I don´t kiss my firend´s cheek on the pictures. Maybe I don´t party every night. Maybe I don´t have a boyfriend...

But at least I don´t treat other people like they were animals or my slaves.

Those "popular" girls

Don´t you just hate it when some girls think they are the higher class and then don´t talk to us and just are so ... how to put it in words?... so full of themselves!

Today (well I didn´t see or hear it) some of those higher-class girls laughed over one of my best friend. Why do they do that? Are they doing that to make themselves feel better? Like making other people feel bad to feel good about themselves?

Two REALLLLYYY bitchy (sorry for using a bad word) girls are one year younger than us and they are totally nerv-breaking! They laugh and mock people alot! Even boys just laugh at them and don´t take them seriously.

Why can´t everybody get along normally? Like don´t think they are many times better than others...

For this is a perfect song:

John Lennon - Imagine

Some pics:

My friend

Today one of my friends mocked me... She doesn´t get it that she actually makes me sad. Then she just wants things from me ... Even though she mocked my standing, I oft stand in the shape of S when I dont remember to stand straight and then after PE she sayd am I trying to stand straight or not? I sayd no and then she was like oh, so you stand like this and she put her bum really back and belly front. So you like standing / stand  like this? Its not my fault I have a bigger bum then her and was just lazy and exhausted from PE and didn´t stand straight! ITS NOT MY FAULT!

It is making me cry when I think it in my head and write it here ... but it is better at least to write it somewhere than just keep it in your mind.

She has sayd that her parents mock her, I feel sorry for her cuz I know now how it feels. That doesnt give her right to be like that to me too though ...

Some classes later she asked me for my water. ... Sorry but she like lives out of my water when we are at school. Every day she asks for it when she sees it in my hands and when I have some food or gum then she asks for it too. Even though I give her that cuz Im a nice person she is still asking for her 22 (euro) cets. Is that fair I ask you?

I have become more protective over my food and drink - I don´t share it freely anymore.

For the first time today I sayd no to her when she asked for my water. Can´t they just drink from the sink?! My tummy starts crumbling before theyrs! And drinking and eating snacks help me to live through the day.

Them: "Can I have a biscuit? Im hungry" Me: "Sure"
Me: "Why we´rent you at the cafeteria? Last break" Them: "We were not hungry then." Yeah right. Them: "Besides it was more quiet now." So you leave me here alone, dont tell me and just use me when you need me?

Right now I feel like they really only use me. Yeah sure, we hang out. But can´t you be like the same at school? They really only ask food and something drink from me? oh, and homework.

This one time in one class this girl I was talking about before playfully teased me. I sayd now you cant get any gum. "NO! I want gum!" Then she gave me a two second massage for my shoulders. She didn´t know or has forgotten I dont like hard massages ...Yeah I gave her gum... This one time there was only one last cookie left. The other one I gave to my deskneighbour. She: "Can I have a cookie?" Me: "There is only this one left." She: "Yeah but!" Me: "I want this one for myself" Then she pouted: "Then I want some gum" and she reached the gum she saw in my bag. Yeah she got it....

   She has changed ... Will I still like the new her? ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... I doubt about it. Sorry if you ever read this.

Another good song: 

Rihanna - Diamonds

does the last pic still work for me? ...